I just got done having a hard conversation with Alex.
He was supposed to be sleeping. Billy and I were watching TV and he came up stairs. I asked him what was wrong, and he replied that he was scared.
So I had him come up and talk about it. He was afraid that someone was going to come into our home and take his toys. We had to assure him that everything would be alright.
I then asked him if there was anything else he was thinking about. He then began to tell me that he was worried that he would be sleeping and the toaster would start on fire. I told him that we would do everything we could to make sure that everyone got out of the house safely. He was worried we wouldn't be able to see and get through the smoke. So I explained that if there was a fire we needed to get down on the floor to crawl to the door. He started crying and said, "What if we forget Rhoslyn?" I started crying. He was so worried about leaving Rhoslyn in the house if we had a fire. I asked him why he thought of this and he said he saw a tree on fire in Amherst by Grandma's. It's amazing what he automatically thinks about just seeing something like that. He went on to explain to me about how this has been locked up in his brain. That it's behind a closed door that is locked up. It was all very detailed.
Sometimes it's hard to explain to people all of Alex's little quirks with having an Autism Spectrum Disorder. Not saying that this is exactly correlated with that, but he has very vivid thoughts and he worries a lot. He gets anxiety and worries about things like this. He even told me how it was in his heart. I think he felt anxious and nervous. Sometimes he is very restless at night because of thoughts like this.
Another thing that comes up is the aftermath after visiting with people all day or going to an event such as a wedding. He will do fine for the most part when we are there, however when we get home or get in the car sometimes he will flail his body around and cry and scream because he doesn't know how to settle himself down and he is so overstimulated at that point. After leaving Great Grandma's Memorial Day weekend he literally spent 45 minutes on the drive home doing this until he exhausted himself enough that he fell asleep.
Well Billy went down with him to read him a story and hopefully that will help him have happy thoughts to fall asleep too. I hope you all don't mind my blog about this. Sometimes I just need to get it out there and write about it.
I think Alex is off in dreamland now :) Hopefully good dreams and thoughts for the rest of the night.